btotherittany

Thu, 25 Aug 2005 17:18:28 GMT

well ok this past week has been pretty good. i started back at school (cosmo). its ok but REALLY boring. and cold. soo yea i dont remember what i did until yesterday bc i have a horrible memory. joe came in and let me give him a manicure/ pedicure. its funny to do girly stuff to guys. its cute. so yea then we hung out. went to the boca mall. then to tb to see jm, jj, and some girls that i met for the first time and cant even remember their names. jj is so funny. so is jm. im happy that i know some of joes friends already so its not like new to me to hang out with them. so yea hung out there for a bit then went back to joes and stuff. gave his little brother steve some awesome ladies man advice and hes becoming quite the little pimp daddaaay. go steve! so yea then i went home bc i was tired and THOUGHT i had school today. but it turns out, we dont today OR tmw. which is sorta cool. but im hoping that my work closes to. who knows, b&N is weird. im totally happy with life right now though. joe is funny and he smells great! ahhh! ok well gotta go shower and to stuff and get ready for what might be a nite of going to work. later gators. stay safe in the 'cane if it hits us hard.
<3 britster

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 10:23:54 GMT

i cant sleep.
but i dont mind bc its because im so happy.
i am SO happy with life right now.
today was 1 month. beach late late last nite. ;)
a yellow rose and my fav coffee surprised me this morning!
aaaaand mall, hanging out (aka being totally adorable)
followed by a deeeelish dinner at the cheesecake factory. yummmm. :)
to talking til really late like always.
ive never been so happy in all my life.
i could hold that hand forever.
i cant explain in simple words how i feel about this boy.
its amazing.
insane.
its perfect.
i wish id found him so long ago.
im gonna try and go to sleep.
im smiling... :)
you make me so happy!!!!!!!
if this is what love is supposed to be, then oh how i love love.
((( awwwww i think im in <3 )))))

Thu, 28 Jul 2005 16:25:35 GMT

well a lot has been going on recently. i am almost done with cosmo school. im off for about a month after the 5th of this month. and i cant wait for the break. but then i have to come back for about 2 weeks. im hoping to go to orlando on my time off and maybe gainesville to visit jess. i have an awesome boyfriend now. but its sort of different this time bc ive never dated any guy like joe. hes so nice. and respectful and he cares about me like no other guy has. and i totally trust him as well as he trusts me. i adore that little stinker. i have been so happy since we started hanging out. and then it was official and it got even better. we do such fun stuff and we can even just hang out and watch tv and i still have fun just cuddling with him. and he makes me laugh soo much. we actually make each other laugh. its pretty much awesome. so yea im all dorky-got-butterflies-in-my-stomach type deal. but its weird bc its the first time ive said so many good things about a guy ive dated and actually meant it. so yea, finishing school, hopefully visiting boston and maybe chicago during the summer. i still want to move bc i have no idea what the future holds for me. but for now im one happy content little lady ;)
<3 brittany

Fri, 11 Feb 2005 19:08:53 GMT

havent been on in awhile. im just not into the internet much anymore. but im at school, so if i get a chance ill go online. lifes good right now. i got the job at B&N and its awesome. i make 7 bucks a pop (orr an hour) so yea its fun and so far everyone of my fellow employeeeees are pretty damn kool. and i get kick ass discounts so now i can read for cheaper. tonite is my v-day date with ginga and we are going to dinner and a moooovie. and then tmw i work from 10-5 but its more cheeez in da bank. and tmw nite im hanging out with my pal tara and then G and i are going to our friend dravians "show". he does drag. so that should be a fucken blast and a half. then sunday is a chill day. tis all.

Wed, 26 Jan 2005 17:49:15 GMT

i have a job interview today. at barnes and noble. i hope i get it. i need money. lifes weird right now. not to great. family shit and all that jazz. and alot on the brain. i cant wait to move away. i hate west palm. i went to boomers last nite and had a really good time. go-karted, rock climbed, laser tagged. it was a blast. some people i just dont understand.

Sat, 18 Dec 2004 08:26:49 GMT

have you ever just wanted to make out with a boy? a good smelling boy with soft lips, pretty eyes and nice hands? i crave that. mmmmm. goodnite.

the grass really IS greener on the other side...

Tue, 30 Nov 2004 04:30:33 GMT

well ive done alot of thinking. being stoned does that to you. anywho. ive realized that its no use crying over him any longer. im done, and i can move on. sure, there's things ill miss. but hes not out of my life forever. he started out as my best friend, and he'll be that still. it'll take some getting used to, but ya know what, thats just what i'll do: get used to it. in due time, in due time. im still a youngin so there'll be plenty more boyfriends, plenty more dates ( eh eh dan...?) and plenty different people to get to know. im not even gonna be here in a year (boston, here i come muthafucka!) so whats there to be upset about? im losing a relationship but gaining back my friendship. something i think was hidden away for awhile there, but can now poke its little head back out, and continue on. a clean slate, as they say. i keep myself busy and dont think about it, and i will get by. on a different note, i hung out with a past aquaintance today and it was actually a pretty good time. we shall see how that goes... so a feeling of rejuvenation (sp?) overcomes me. and im really starting to feel a bit better about all this. :)
coheeds canceled AGAIN? wtf.

Sun, 28 Nov 2004 03:39:09 GMT

ive never felt depressed until there was you. well, us, and then no longer us. i wish id said how i felt before it was too late. and it seems it must be. to get that lump in my throat and wish more then anything you'd call. to squint away the tears that form in my eyes on the way home on 1-95. to try my hardest to pretend this is all a movie and you're going to run after me and everything turns out perfect in the end. to do all the things we were supposed to do. you "entertained" so many ideas that never even got a chance. id give anything to go back to that nite at the beach and start all over. a part of me loves you. i dont know how big or small the part is but i know its there for sure. because my heart yearns for you. it misses you so much. more then i've missed anyone before. its like your not even a part of this world and i can never see you again. to go back to friends seems impossible. to hear your adorable voice on the phone or even see you, would make me want to be with you even more. it may be easier for you to push aside your feelings even though u said it wasnt, but for me, its not even an option. i feel like shutting down. fuck school. fuck work. fuck life. i want you. thats what i care about. you have my heart in your hands and you dont even know its there. i need you. i can only hope you call. and you'd think id have better chances, i mean, hope is my middle name. you get happiness, you abuse it, and then you're fucked. and its all my fault. and i feel like a mouse in a cage with no way out. im lost.
[and for anyone who even thinks brittanys being emo can suck my dick. i never show emotion in this thing, but i have nowhere else to put it. so you can easily ignore my words. goodnite.]

Sat, 27 Nov 2004 08:27:00 GMT

i am sick of how things are. i want them back to the way they were. i am so god damn stubborn. i want so badly to get what i want. as selfish as that sounds. he wont even read this. but then again, he doesnt know how much it hurts. and maybe its best he doesnt know. why smile when there isnt shit to smile about. im officially sad. i want to get over him so bad but its harder then i thought. fuck it. you know what you did to me tonite. you know it was wrong. maybe you should hurt for a change. instead of me being the vulnerable pussy i always am. fuck this. i dont need this. wow talk about sadness fading to anger. i may just go lesbo.

Wed, 17 Nov 2004 03:03:26 GMT

hey folks, havent updated in a long time. well haircuttings a bitch and im tired from so many classes but oh wellll. i have the constant urge to pee ALL the time. aka a bladder infection. but dont worry kids, im on meds and they're working well now that they've finally kicked in. looovely. i wanna go to goodwill bc i havent been in forever and i need some clothes and i have no money...so whats the obvious plan? yes mam, the good ole G.W. well coheed got rescheduled and i was sorta blah about that bc i was excited to go but turns out its gonna be on dec 3 now. which im gonna have to request off at work. i just love scoring points with steve-o. we all know how much he loves the britster. well i hung out with my pal ryan tonite. went to chilis. it was delish. ginger and i colored our hair last nite. and rinsed it out in a very "girls gone wild" sorta way ;) anyone who might read this and wants to come in on a monday or tuesday to my cosmo class for me to give them a scalp treatment to please call the cell and let me know bc i need credit majorly. thank u everyone. k dolls, im out.
wannamakeout??
-britster.

:(

Fri, 22 Oct 2004 18:07:14 GMT

well im in cosmo class. should be doing other stuff but im not. it hurts my chest to breath. fucken weird. i feel really worn out. from alot of stuff. and im not bitching or complaining. i mean, im going to school for what i want to do, im getting AA classes out of the way, I make good money at my job ( although its still a bit hard for me) and i have a great boyfriend. but its all alot for me. i have barely any free time. it sucks. im always tired. im beginning to think im getting cranky b/c im always so tired. we have SO much shit to get done in this class and i get frustrated with myself so easily if i can't get things the first time around. my other classes are so hard bc i blow at math as it is. and writing papers for eng comp really isnt on my fav's list. so im stuck doing all this work and i dont want to do any of it. i finally have a bf that treats me well and is there for me through anything and he lives far away. and i dont have the money during the week to drive to boca all the time. i wish it was different. but im happy with him so its so hard to be negative about the distance thing. i jsut want to sleep for an entire day and start over. b/c i need that, and i dont have time. thats sick, i barely have time to sleep. well im hanging out with ginger, chris and maybe if bryan wants to come along tonite ( if not, then no bry) to the mooooovies and then i think im staying over gings. we will probably watch movies and sleeeeeep. and im gonna sleep in. and i know i told blake id come over tmw but it all depends when i wake up in the morning. and theni have work again tmw nite. and then after work, maybe a sleepover...i dont know yet. and then sunday is finally my day off from everything. and you can bet your ass this little chiquita will be off in ZZZZ land. thats about it. sorry if im complaining folks. i had to get that off my chest.

cant wait to sleep in my own bed...

Sun, 17 Oct 2004 05:12:17 GMT

halloween horror nites was awesome. i wasnt scared...most of the time :P. all in all i had fun :) spending time w/ the ladys was enjoyable as always. and seeing folks at peoples appt's was also. my little scotty pippin. what a doll. bless his heart ;) i finally saw bry's appt with all its stuff in it. its cute but sad. i hope the distance doesnt hurt us. i think we'll be fine. hes such a damn cutie! anywhooo so this weekend was a classic, never to forget. thank u erica if u read this, though i doubt u will, for letting us stay over. goodnite.

Thu, 14 Oct 2004 06:05:04 GMT

well its still the same old shit. school and work. halloween horror nites this weekend with ging and emma ( hopefully, if all goes as planned..) and bryan moves this weekend. its sad :( but i think things will be fine b/c im really happy with him :) i got hair extensions which is kinda weird but cool all at once bc i have long hair. well i feel sick oddly (and randomly) enough so byyye.

Sun, 03 Oct 2004 15:44:18 GMT

well hung out with bryan yesterday and then worked. work wasnt to great but i got to see my gingaaa :) ( sorry i couldnt hang out baby, but um yea u know why, and sorry for her "actions" tooo!) so i couldnt go home bc my road was flooded so i stayed at my sisters and i dont think i wouldve made it out last nite anyways bc i was SO fucken tired. i slept like ive never slept before. and i had another crazy ass dream. i keep having them. its weird. anyways today is homework, lunch date, and bryan i think :) well see ya on the flip side, yo.

Sat, 25 Sep 2004 22:41:14 GMT

well here's to ANOTHER FUCKING HURRICANE. florida is so lame. im going to boston as soon as that cosmo license is in my hand i swear to god. i hope everyones safe and im pleading for the electric to stay on so i can take showers and such through the week. im guessing were missing another day of class on monday. grrreat. this shit sucks. i love you all.

in ccccooooosssmmmoooo ccccllllaaassss

Thu, 23 Sep 2004 16:18:52 GMT

i wanna make out with ginger bc her tittaays look huge right now. haha. i love you ginger. and umm i get to straighten bryans hair tonite and im soo excited. free taco=goooood. bc free food is always better, eh? eh? bye.

pizzzzza :)

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 23:12:13 GMT

we both passed our scalp treatment tests! no ONE accidental laugh, but then again we were totally focused..as always (ha!) we kick accce. it was this long ginger <----------------> and hairy!! haha ;) now for some good ole papa johns (aw reminds me of ryan..)and some homework and sleep bc ive lost so much this week. maybe i wont be late AGAIN tomorrow. ps ginger i hope your hair looks even hotter then it already does, tmw. oh and bring my eyeshadow if u remember mmmk? thank u baby. bye folks.

fuck you.

Wed, 22 Sep 2004 03:36:18 GMT

im so tired. and i've got so much to do. and i just found out something i really wish i hadnt. but im not going to let it bother me, b/c its in the past. and the past was shit. and thats all it ever will be. i remember nothing positive from it anymore. nothing good at all. and even though this is about a person who will most likely never see this, if they ever do, i want you to know that from the deepest part of me: you were NEVER worth it. so i hope that hurts you as much as you hurt me. you were just a waste of time. asshole.

i loooove the way you loooove me :)

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 03:53:45 GMT

well its back for another week of school and being insanely busy. it should be lovely. got new black pants for the occasion. niiiice. last nite was fun with the lad-ays. i love them and i slept awesome ( with ginger of course) minus the dream about my mom dying. how odd is that... soo hmm thats all, i made myself a lunch for tmw. tasty tasty. i need to stop spending money. im getting so poor. it sucks. random thought: do we even have time for each other? because i just dont know...
goodnite.

tirrrred

Fri, 17 Sep 2004 02:35:59 GMT

well schools going ok. its a bit of a load for little brittany to handle but im getting there. first actual test in cosmo tmw. wish me and ging good luck :).. anyways basically same old. got a new boy in my life. well hes been in my life but now hes just a wee bit more into it. you know who you are and you're a cutie ;) nothing like dating your "best friend with a weiner", eh? not to much else is going on. i work this weekend so hopefully ill have money. (PS do NOT text message my cell phone unless i text message you, mmmk?? thanks) so yea thats all thats new. im going to study, shower and finally sleeeeeep. goodnite.

Sun, 12 Sep 2004 05:04:29 GMT

well frances is gone and life's moved on. im getting back into the grooove of things. worked tonite, made money which is always HOT. and tmw im hanging with jess bc she's gonna be heading back up to fsu and i will miss her :( and then monday its cosmetology finally. but what about those damn zip ties...? so yeaaa.. work, school, life. and i sort of want to hang out with a boy. i dont know why but lately i miss the affection a guy can give. my hairs brown now. that red faded to an ugly shit color. and i think im gonna do some red streaky/chunk things just bc i get bored with my hair faster then anything. anyways sooo hope everyones well and their houses are still intact. looooove, brittany

"turn off, brain"

Sat, 04 Sep 2004 02:17:11 GMT

well being stuck inside b/c of this insane hurri...oh wait it hasnt even hit yet? man i totally wouldnt know. my house is all boarded up. and my mind is spinning. lately ive been calm and at ease. not much thinking. more relaxed, dealing with school (and actually putting effort into things) and i like it that way. but then, it never fails, my mind starts up again. i dont like it. but its unavoidable. sooo many questions. but i dont know if its good or if its bad. and i hate when i think. and i hate when i think and i haaaaate when i think. BYE.

my jetta isnt as "fully equipped" as i thought...

Mon, 30 Aug 2004 05:23:31 GMT

well today was lovely to say the least.the meeting at work was gay. but those bright red shirts should be a real kicker when we get 'em... anywho,fed the cats and fish like i was supposed to. got the mail. and little miss gaby got a package. not as big as mine though ;) and bryan and i watched drop dead fred. not as good as when i was 10 but hey, it was a movie nonetheless. thennn we went to chilis to eat dinner with ginger.then met up with emma and keith at the bowling alley, but keith had to bizounce so emma was the one left with us crazy folk. ginger can bust a mooo-ve. i love her. well we were gonna go bowling but about ten minutes of the ghetto ass greenacres (aka hicktown) was enough for all of us. so we left, though some of us needed assistance getting to the car. and from there we went to what we thought would be a nice little flick. but NO.... no a/c. hot as HELL. mosquitos. passed out girl in MY backseat ;). everybody just wanted their beds. so we left the movie early. with only ONE killing by the anaconda. but all in all the day was ok. though questions and eery little thoughts float through my head. i will go to sleep. and u all should do the same. nite.

college and such...

Fri, 27 Aug 2004 05:35:29 GMT

just started classes at pbcc. what a thrill. i met some cool people in my classes though. and cosmetology is starting soon. and that makes me horny, let me tell you. sooo im working at lindburgers these days. no more tuby ruesdays for me. its working out pretty well so far. theres not much else going on, school, work, life and the like. well i guess that about sums it up. exciting huh?